Ken Ilgunas - Walden on Wheels: On The Open Road from Debt to Freedom

Text copyright 2013 by Ken Ilgunas
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Published by Amazon Publishing
P.O. Box 400818
Las Vegas, NV 89140

Cover design by Laserghost
Cover photographs: (author photograph) Andrew Wayne
(van) ballyscanlon / Getty Images
(flora) Charles Krebs / CORBIS

ISBN-13: 9781477800751
ISBN-10: 1477800751

For Mom and Dad

CONTENTS

Remember who you wanted to be.

NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR

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I tried to write this book as true to life as possible. It bears mentioning, though, that I changed the names and altered details of several characters. And, on a few occasions, I took liberties with the chronology when I did not think the authenticity of the story would be compromised.

End of 2009 Spring Semester
Duke University

DEBT: $0

O N A SPRING EVENING in 2009, in a campus parking lot at Duke University, I was lying on the floor of my van, trying to hide from view.

This is it, I thought. They know.

I was wearing nothing but my boxer shorts, splayed out on the carpet, face up, like a scarecrow toppled by the wind. My arms and legs took up pretty much my whole central living space: the section of the van in between the bed in the very back and the driver and passenger seats up front. Next to my head was my three-drawer plastic storage container, which, in addition to serving as my counter for cooking, held pretty much everything I owned: stacks of cereal boxes, bags of rice and beans, and a jumble of miscellaneous items, including sewing supplies, utensils, duct tape, and recycled Ziploc bags.

It was a sunny day. As on all sunny days, it was far hotter inside the van than it was outside. It was unreasonably hot. Scalding hot. Africa hot. The van was a moist 98F womb, and I, a red-faced fetus wishing for an orifice to wriggle out of. Between the North Carolina heat and the very realistic possibility of they knowing about my secret, my glands thought it was a good idea to discharge all reserves of sweat, darkening the hue of my underwear, imprinting a moist outline of my body onto the carpet, and encasing me in a slick film of perspiration.

Moments before, when Id caught a glimpse of the vehicle that had parked next to me, Id been cooking my evening meal on an isobutane backpacking stove on top of my storage container. As soon as I saw his car through my window, I pulled the blinds down, turned off the stove, and flattened myself on the floor. It was a security guards patrol car.

I wondered, What was it that gave me away? Did someone see me get into the van? Has someone ratted me out?

Please dont knock on my door. Please! Dont knock!

I held my breath as the security guard shut off the engine. His door croaked open and slammed. His heels clicked like Gestapo jackboots across the asphalt.

If the security guard was inspecting the van, as I thought he was, then I knew things must have looked awfully strange to him. All the window blinds had been pulled down. There was a large black sheet of fabric hanging behind the passenger and drivers seats that prevented him and all other passersby from seeing what was in the back of the van. Though he couldnt see me because of the blinds and the sheet, he could freely inspect the vans front area, where he was sure to make note of the laundry basket on the passenger seat, spewing out pant legs and sweaty white tees. Or he might pause to wonder why the windshield had fogged up (from the steam from my cooking pot). Or why odors of broccoli and onion were leaking out of the windows I left ajar.

I knew that, any second, hed tap on my window and Id have no choice but to answer his questions and explain to him why I was half-naked, why I was cooking a meal in a van, and why Id been secretly living in a campus parking lot for the past four months.

I knew how the dominoes would fall: the universitys administration would revoke my parking permit, Id be banned from all campus parking lots, and, without the van, Id be forced to adopt some conventional and unaffordable style of livingone where Id have to rent an apartment, hang decorative curtains, and buy a rug to tie the room together. And Id have to break the promise I told myself I wouldnt break four months earlier: Id have to go back into debt.

For the whole 2009 spring semester, as a graduate student in Dukes liberal studies program, Id been secretly living in my van. And this was the moment Id been dreading.

INTRODUCTION,

OR

WHATS A VANDWELLER?

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A VANDWELLERAS DEFINED by vandwellersis, essentially, a person who lives in a vehicle. The type of vehicle the vandweller lives in doesnt matter, so long as the lifestyle is simple and the home has wheels.

It may come as a surprise to some readers that there are more than a couple of people living in their vehicles right now. At this moment, one of them might be reading Edward Abbey with the glow of her headlamp in a Walmart parking lot. A man and his dog may be driving west on the I-90 in a 1985 Dodge cargo van with the windows rolled down. A few retirees might have formed a wagon circle in the desert outside of Quartzsite, Arizona.

Theyre parked inconspicuously in front of hotels and mechanic shops. Theyre asleep on your city street one night and gone the next. Theyre Americas modern-day vagabond; the twenty-first centurys tramp and hobo, drifter and gypsy. Theyre people who take pride in living lives of thrift, adventure, and independence. Theyre unburdened by belongings, unfastened from earthly foundations, and unruffled with the prospect of going to the bathroom in an empty Gatorade bottle. Theyre vandwellers.

Over the years, Ive learned thatbehind a vandwellers decision to move into what is often a cramped, smelly, heatless, air-conditioning-less, you mean it doesnt come with an espresso wine tower?! vehiclethere is always a story. And because the vandweller made such a decision because they were lured to the road by powerful, romantic longings, or because he or she was forced to resort to desperate measures in desperate times (or because theres just something wrong with him, as my mother would put it), its usually a good story.

A great many people have asked me what its like to live in a van. Theyve inquired how I fed myself, how I stayed warm, and how I kept it a secret, among other practical queries. But the most frequent question asked pertains to why I did it.

From other vandwellers stories, Ive learned that the vandweller doesnt become a vandweller simply by purchasing a van. Rather, some personal change or transformation must first occur. The answer to the question about why I lived in a van is this book, which means that the following story isnt so much about a van but about student debt, and wilderness, and all the people and places and journeys that have made me the person I am today, who happens to be okay with tight quarters and dubious hygiene.

So in order to properly tell my story, I ought not begin with the moment I bought a Ford Econoline in a used car lot outside of Raleigh, North Carolina, in January 2009. Rather, I should start years beforefour years before, to be exactwhen I was an indebted twenty-one-year-old about to finish my fourth year of college.