Daphne de Marneffe - The Rough Patch: Marriage and the Art of Living Together

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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Names: De Marneffe, Daphne, 1959 author.

Title: The rough patch : marriage, midlife, and the art of living together /

Daphne de Marneffe, PhD.

Description: New York, NY : Scribner, [2018] | Includes bibliographical references.

Identifiers: LCCN 2017047399 (print) | LCCN 2017052545 (ebook) | ISBN

9781501118944 | ISBN 9781501118913 | ISBN 9781501118937

Subjects: LCSH: MarriagePsychological aspects. | CouplesPsychology. |

Interpersonal relations. | Midlife crisis.

Classification: LCC HQ734 (ebook) | LCC HQ734 .D3845 2018 (print) | DDC 306.81dc23

LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2017047399

ISBN 978-1-5011-1891-3

ISBN 978-1-5011-1894-4 (ebook)

For Terry

I n this book, I illustrate ideas with stories drawn from my experiences as a therapist, teacher, and interviewer. Ive changed all names and identifying information to protect the confidentiality of the people who have sought my help and the privacy of those I have interviewed. I hope that readers recognize themselves in these pages, but any resemblance to actual persons is coincidental.

The ideas in the book represent my synthesis of an enormous body of research on couples, emotion, and human development. For the sake of readability, I rarely cite specific studies and authors in the text, but I encourage readers to consult the notes for sources and further information.

Y ou are forty-three. You have been married twelve years. You didnt marry too young. You had your adventures and your choices. You now have two little girls (ten and seven), or two little boys, or one of each. You were in love when you married. Thats what youve always believed, at least, although now sometimes you wonder. You knew you were different from each other, but at the beginning that was fineit helped you feel stable, or it helped you grow, and it was even exciting, as you noticed how much you wanted to reach out and understand and even indulge each others differences. Yet now you feel too different. Sometimes you drive each other crazy. Or leave each other feeling deeply hurt. Or kind of neutral. Or each of these, at different times.

A lot of advice is out there to help you deal with the problem. Social scientists tell you that people are happier at sixty-five than forty-five, so if you wait it out another twenty years, you might feel better. The couple specialists, the work-family balance people, the sex and intimacy experts, all have something to say that almost fits. But somehow they dont get at the crux of the problem. The crux is that you feel lost, or lonely, or at times almost blindingly miserable. Sometimes you feel you cant breathe. Its true that youre exhausted at work, or your mothers ill, or your hormones are out of whack. But its hard to believe that thats the whole story. You didnt always feel this stuck in your relationship. There was a time when the marriage made sense.

What changed? And why? Perhaps you felt fine about your marriage, until you surprised yourself by becoming infatuated with someone else. Or maybe you were absorbed by the care of your kids when they were small and didnt give much thought to your personal satisfaction. But now your older daughter/son spends time texting her/his friends (how did that happen so quickly?) and doesnt seem interested in being around you on the weekends. Even if the child-centered marriage didnt foster much passion, at least it provided a meaningful framework. Now things are shifting. What felt tolerable before doesnt anymore. You are left wondering, where am I in all this? Who have I become?

Its not quite fair, but you cant help blaming your partner for how dissatisfied you sometimes feel. Its hard to imagine putting up with her/his workaholism/drama/withdrawal/insensitivity for another few decades. Yet you know feeling this way is wrong somehow. Marriage takes work. Immature people think relationships should be easy or fun; selfish people leave when the going gets rough. Youve always been a good worker; youre great at work. But its not clear what you are working for. Deep down, you arent sure things can change. And the truth (shameful and hard to utter) is that sometimes you feel youre not sure you want things to change anymore. You dont want to have to work so hard for whatever incremental satisfactions you might gain. Occasionally you feel a whiff of freedom, and it is shockingly exhilarating. You feel guilty about it, but on the other hand, you are still youngish. You deserve to have some intimacy and passion and real connection in your life. You wont have your energy or looks forever. How long is it reasonable to go on like this?

But you dont want to make any destructive decisions. Thats the path your sister/uncle/best friend took, and look where it left them. The kids, lets face it, suffered. Shuttling back and forth between houses, forced to witness their parents heartaches at way too close a range, and no money saved for college. And the adults imported their same old problems into the next relationship. Lately, though, you find yourself calling to mind the success stories: the kids who seem to have emerged unscathed, and the parents who seem so much happier, like new people. Still, you dont want to divorce. It would be easier, better, if you could find a way not to be so unhappy in your marriage. Or maybe not to be so unhappy, period.