Tad Friend - In the Early Times: A Life Reframed

Strangers often told me how wonderful my father was. Wait, my father? Id think. They met a different man, the handsome polymath with the much-stamped passport. The earnest charmer. At conference dinners, hed linger over the Sauternes to draw out his tablemates knowledge of Persian poetry; once, with a Korean man who spoke almost no English, he was able to convey baseballs arcane balk rule using only pantomime. His pockets were always full of business cards inscribed with pleas to keep in touch, as if he were a human Wailing Wall.

Theodore Wood Friend III was Dorie to his contemporaries and Day to his children, from my first tries at Daddy. (Were one of those Wasp families where baby names stick for life.) A believer in letters to the editor and global rapport, he drove four hundred miles to witness Martin Luther Kings I Have a Dream speech, won the Bancroft Prize for his history of the Philippines three years later, and became president of Swarthmore College, in 1973, at forty-two. By then, he was fluent in the histories of India, Pakistan, Bangladesh, China, Japan, Korea, and all of Southeast Asia, as well as of American foreign relations. He possessed a resonant baritone and a self-deprecating manner, and hopes were high.

The middle yearsmiddling. Nudged out at Swarthmore, he sought a spot on Reagans National Security Council, hoping for a rise to the cabinet from there. After being passed over, he ran the Eisenhower Exchange Fellowship. EEF brought foreign go-getters to the United States to exchange ideasand, at Day's urging, sent Americans overseas for the same purpose. Like America, he had a missionary temperament, and his sweeping doctrines applied even to the three of us children, the smallest of tribes.

After twelve years at EEF he stepped down, at sixty-five, to take care of our mother, Elizabeth. If Day was a gravel truck juddering off to mend the broken world, Mom was a coupe cornering at speed. At his retirement dinner, where she wore an auburn wig after her chemo, we all had our photo taken with two of the foundations chairmen: Gerald Ford and George H. W. Bush. When the photographer pointed out that Moms hand was obscuring Bushs thigh, Bush remarked, roguishly, Leave it, Elizabeth, it feels good where it is.

That kind of photo costs more, George, she shot back. Days guffaw made everyone except Jerry Ford crack up, and that photo was the keeper.

One August afternoon in 2018, after lunch and before Days nap, my younger sister, Timmie, and I sat down with him in his living room to ask about his life. It felt like our last chance to understand him; he was nearly eighty-six and his once-lush conversation was as clenched as winter wheat. He clearly mistrusted our agenda. The way he sat in his blue armchairchin low, lips tight, gray hair batwinging from his enormous headcalled to mind a nineteenth-century caricature: Boss Tweed astride his empire; the cantankerous Tories.

We began gently, at the beginning, which was probably a mistake, as he hated his Pittsburgh boyhood. Being raised by old-school Wasps was like being raised by a minibar. Timmie asked, How would your parents have described you?

They would have described me as a baby. And then they would have described me as a boy. Timmie glanced over: Uh-oh. He was just checking the box: I owe my children this courtesy. I was of like mind, a paramedic filling out the forms: Did you take every possible measure? Id suppressed my expectations for so long it felt like a form of filial piety. But Timmie still hoped he might finally confess that he loved us more deeply than, for secret reasons, he could ever reveal.

He closed his eyes and said, Im sort of hungry for ice cream.

You had some a short while ago, she said.

I did?

Right after lunch.

He frowned. Day loved sweets. In college, he got fired from a summer job for filling doughnuts with too much jelly. When we lived in Manila, in 1967, he spent two days in a hospital, as Mom noted in a doleful letter home, under observation foryou wont believe itchewing up and swallowing a Christmas tree ball! We had a rather elaborate cake in the shape of a dragon and the eyes were glass balls. Dorie thought they were candy and ate one. Two years later, Day wrote Mom from Amsterdam to say, Drinking young gin (tough) rather than lemon gin (a little sweet) because I want the waiter to realize I am TOUGH . Of course, you realize, my lovely, that I am at least a little sweet. I like a lot of brown sugar on my cereal and a lot of white sugar in my tea and a lot of sympathy in my boyish disconsolations.

He was prey to darker desires, too, but he hid those better. Timmie tried again: If somebody wrote your parents and said, Tell us about your son, whats he like? what would they have said?

Nobody did that. His laugh was a rueful bark. Nobody cared.

So no one cared about you when you were young?

Well, I cared about myself. He laughed again, more softly. But, no. He turned his reading lamp to glare the bulb at us. You go to the station to file a missing person report, and suddenly youre the suspect.