Pearl Sunshine - Becoming Pearl

2020 BY SCPUBLISHING / MICHAEL E. CHALBERG

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Loved Back to Life Series

Becoming Pearl

An Autobiography of Love

By Pearl Sunshine

Editorial Supervision: Michael E. Chalberg

Paperback Edition ISBN 978-0-9746464-8-0

Ebook Edition ISBN 978-1-7349703-2-6

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Forward by SCPublishing

Our new collections of autobiographies entitled: Loved Back to Life Series , are being presented to all who have lost hope in the power of Gods unconditional love...to heal and redeem His purposes for our lives. We live in both the physical realm and the larger spiritual realm simultaneously, yet it is the physical experience which often defines our understanding of spiritual realities. So, we seek to find meaning to these realities, when we encounter suffering and pain, rejection and condemnation in our relationships with others...who are supposed to love, nurture, provide for our needs and teach us the truth about why our Heavenly Father created us to have an eternal relationship with Him.

When this relationship is broken by evils influence, through control of those around and over us...we lose hope and trust in the power of Gods love to overcome this evil and we cry out to the Lord, You would have been kinder to never have created me...just let me die. This is often our primary mistake in seeking answers to why it seems that God isnt answering our prayers and we feel abandoned by Him as though our condition means we are unworthy of His love and presence in our lives. We are afraid to trust in and hope for, the fulfillment of Gods promises and purpose for us in Christ Jesus. This is why this first autobiographical set by Pearl Sunshine is given in her own words, changing only names of those involved, without holding back any reality of abuses by evil controlling her life. The drawings given of the actual events from early childhood, depicting clearly the actions of others... family and Satanic cults can be triggering of painful memories for readers who are themselves survivors of such abuses. We ask that the readers have the strength and courage to continue reading when possible, to discover the joys as well of being drawn into Gods heart. Her purpose here is not to convince anyone of the truth of evil in our lives, or her strength in continuing to follow the path that Jesus has set for her, to trust Gods love again.

Her purpose, and ours, is to challenge our readers to understand more fully why Jesus is calling to us to trust in Him, and His love to heal and redeem us...to do for us what we cant do for ourselves...without Him. If we can believe in the promises that; I will never leave nor forsake you, I will come to you in the darkest depths and overcome the evil to set you free, I will love you back to life... eternal life with me and In this world you
will have tribulations, but rejoice for I have overcome this world, then we can know the truth of who Jesus is in this life, and trust again in the plans and purposes of our Father Gods unconditional love in action... right now... right here, where you are at. If these autobiographies, and the ones to follow in this series, help you to seek a renewed relationship of trust in Him...then the suffering you read about followed by their free will choices to continue on the journey, will have been worth it to each author. The introduction of Pearl by Jesus can challenge us all about what He means by saying, My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. This is the power of Gods love freely given to us to survive this world with Him until we go home.

Ultimately these books and the others that will follow in this series, are about the personal commitment that God makes to each one of us to bring healing, as revealed in these private journals of one group of people with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) or Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD), who accepted Gods call to receive His promise of healing for wholeness in Him... living as one person with Him.

Our first series of books, Shattered People: Journeys to Joy - Love, focused on specific issues of people with DID and their struggle to receive healing later in life so they could be acceptable to be loved by family and relationships in their closest circumstances. I offer commentary and counseling in this series as pastor, friend and counselor for them to promote treatment methods and dialogue about trauma and abuse survival, especially about our common questions to God on suffering, survival and how we all can know God through relationships within community and in our one on one time with Him..

This series however, Loved Back to Life, looks at the individual searching for meaning and purpose directly from God in conversation with Him, expecting answers from no one else... not counseling or outside help for most of their lives. They seek meaning for a lifetime of feeling alone in darkness... evil that defined who they were, before discovering they were never alone. How they and Pearl come to trust in Jesus love placed very deep in their soul long ago was as hard to believe for them, as the memories of suffering being revealed as true by those who had endured them... and the healing Jesus gives to both. These books allow you the reader to learn from their struggle to know God... to trust Jesus... to accept the Holy Spirit and their will for her life and how receiving Gods love is the purpose of her life... a purpose she now wishes to share with all who suffer... to risk allowing Jesus in with His answers for healing.

Editor & Fellow Servant Pastor Mike

- Dr. Joe Johnson, pastoral counselor. D.Min - Fuller Seminary 4/2020

Pearls miraculous story of redemption, healing, recovery and freedom from unspeakable suffering is a witness to what most people would say is impossible when they read these books. God brings Pastor Mike alongside of Pearl to share his love of Jesus to witness in confidence the power of Jesus to redeem and minister healing to Pearl, including each one of her dissociative parts (alters) more than I have ever known. Pearl opens her heart wide to the readers to the many ways she is healing and recovering from incredible abuses physically, emotionally and spiritually. I have learned that the biggest factor in healing trauma is to personally know that we are not alone... this is the cry of attachment pain, Is anyone with me... am I alone? Jesus never gives up on reaching her as Mike didn't, as He does with us, and I believe shell never give up on them trusting they will be there for her.

Book One P1 Out of the Darkness: An Autobiography of Love: Part One

Book One P2 Out of the Darkness: An Autobiography of Love: Part Two

Book Two - Becoming Pearl: An Autobiography of Love

Book Three - The City of Hope: An Autobiography of Love