The Art of Losing You
Prose and Poetry
By:
Se Calix
This is a non-fiction book that entails the real-life stories of Se Calix. The people involved were not mentioned for their protection. Any resemblance to other actual events, in any places and time, with persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
First published in the Philippines in 2021
Philippine Copyright 2021 by Narcisa Calixto
The moral right of the author has been asserted.
No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form or by any means without the prior permission in writing of the publisher or the author, nor be otherwise circulated in any form of binding or cover other than that in which it was published and without a similar condition including this condition being imposed on the subsequent purchaser.
Published by Se Calix Publishing House
Printed and bounded in the Philippines by:
PrintersMARK at San Fernando, Pampanga
Tel. No.: 045-961-6775
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Cover Design by:
Eden Mica Lasta and Jeremy Lasta
Arts by:
Eden Mica Lasta
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Arts Photographed by:
Kevin Soriano
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Arts Color Enhanced by:
Jeremy Lasta
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For Aya, my sweetest.
Contents
Acknowledgments
I would like to thank my family and friends who have been very supportive of me from day one. I would not be able to complete this without your words of love and encouragement.
To my readers on the Nobody Knows Facebook page and Instagram, know that you are my inspiration too. I thought I would not be able to come back with this passion of mine since I was a kid. Without your utmost support, I may still be dreaming until this dayso thank you very much from the deepest corners of my heart. Thank you for the heartfelt messages that I receive all the time. It makes me realize how simple words can have an impact on someone who might have needed to read or hear these. In return, I become more inspired each day to inform you through proses and poetries the important lessons that I learn as life continues.
Hats off to all who are trying and surviving no matter how difficult life is. Hats off to all who share their best knowledge for the benefit of those who are feeling lost, wasted, and no longer have the appetite to live.
Thanks to all of you, and I will be forever indebted for all the things that you did to me, from sharing my works, praying with me, and joining our advocacy to bring positivity to everyone especially inspiring our youth to become the best version of themselves.
And most importantly, thanks to God, the one and only Creator, who has given me this talent in writing my heart away. We deeply miss our father every time, but we know that he is now with You, smiling at us from heaven.
Its been an honor to write this book to all of you.
To the moon and beyond, may we all shine on.
Dearest,
The Art of Losing You is a self-help book for those who are feeling lost, broken, guilty, resentful, etc., and are yearning to rebuild themselves and find healing. It is a collection of proses and poetries written by myself which are based or inspired by my real-life experiences.
And as this book entails a fraction of the story of my whole life as of writing, it means that most of these were written while I was experiencing bliss, love, madness, trauma, or grief while losing the people who are now part of my past. Over my adulting years, I have used writing as my outlet whenever I felt down as I find comfort in letting my deepest feelings bleed through my words.
I write when Im upset, or when Im delighted with whats going on with my life. I write when I do not want to forget the important events in my life too. Ive used writing as my coping mechanism to almost anything to find healing along the way and tackle through the blank space the realities about love, faith, friendship, family, loss, failures, success, and life in its entirety.
There are no certain rules in continuous healing, or constantly keeping our outlooks in life positive, because people have different know-how, coping mechanisms, perspectives, or deep understanding about life. But I do hope that through my words, youll find the right amount of comfort that you were looking for from a friend or a companionand to finally learn the art of letting go of the past, forgive the people that are no longer with you, find solace in every struggle that you are facing, strengthen your faith, learn from my life lessons that may relate to your personal experiences and finally forgive yourself too.
Sharing this part of my life story with all of you is also my way of honoring and glorifying God for what He had done to me and my family, because without Him, I wouldnt be here writing to you. I wouldnt be here as living proof that all life struggles are worth surviving for. That life is still beautiful despite everything that weighs us down.
Thank you for trusting me as your friend, to help you throughout your journey toward healingwhich is one of the most difficult to do in this life. If I did it, trust that you will too.
With love and gratitude,
Se Calix
Details of You
Id like to draw you on my notepad, but I wasnt blessed with crafty hands to do so. So, I wrote about you instead, and all your details buried in my head.
Mine
My heart confines
all the good words I know
because of what I feel for you.
So, tell me all the things
that could break it right now
or split it into two.
Because such things seem
impossible when I
see your eyes looking at me.
It sends me a resounding
message that together
well make a beautiful history.
Darling, this is one of the moments
that I will treasure, that says
we will always be fine.
When you seek no one elses help,
love and comfort, but mine.
Radiance
Sometimes, I wish I could be one of those brightest stars at night. I want to shine like no other, at a certain place and time. Id like to give the right amount of lights in different magnitudes and hues to amaze your beautiful eyes. Id like to be so far away and yet I will feel so near each time you climb uphill and search only for me. It will be my way to know that somehow you needed me. That somehow Im important. Because the moment the night sets in and you sat in front of that big telescope of yoursno one will be able to take your undivided attention away from me. No one can break our connection that yields through the distance. And no one can satisfy your thirst as I mask myself in radiance.
Hazel Eyes
You have those hollowed eyes I like the most about you and I felt so enchanted, as if they try to invite me to Neverland. One look from your hazel eyes and I feel sanctified. One look from your eyes and I feel thankful to be alive. Thankful to know you. Thankful to be in love with a man like you. And thankful to possess such a passion that I thought only exists in paradise.
A Love Worth Fighting For
Someday, someone will come into your life when all of what you have believed and upheld will be put into question. Out of clear conscience, on so many tangled events, no matter how hard you try to justify and avoid what is coming on your way, you can never defy the stronger desire to continue loving this person, at the expense of breaking yourself at the end. No matter what the cost or the odds might be, you know deep in your heart; it is a love worth fighting for.
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