thisbook is herebydedicated tothe colourGREY!
A Publication
Author Laurie MatthewFirst Published 2002by
Young Womens Centre1 Victoria RoadDundee
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Contents
Acknowledgementsp11
Introductionp13
Chapter 1:
The Young Womens Centrep16
Chapter 2:
Working with Survivors of Ritual Abusep21Chapter 3:
Ritual Abusep31 Conspiracy Theories (32)
Chapter 4:
Group Mechanicsp35 Rituals (42), Betrayal (48)
Chapter 5:
Beliefs and Faithp55 Why is it so hard to accept or believe? (58)
Chapter 6:
Meeting Placesp67 Tayside(69)
Chapter 7:
Organisationp79Organisation of Groups (82), The Fringes (85)
Chapter 8:
Common Objects associated with Ritualsp91
Robes (91) Masks, Altar (92), Candles, Bowls and Chalices(93),
Daggers, Swords and Knives, Horns, Bells (94), Bones and
Skulls, Insect and Creepy Crawlies, Animals (95), Curse Dolls
and Obects (96) , Cross Grouped Bible, Fire (97), Tarpaulin, Symbols (98)
Chapter 9:
Children involved in Ritual Abusep103
Born into it (106) Single parent marries into it (108),
Close relative or family friend takes them in (108), Foster carers (109)Childminders (110) Experiences of child survivors (111),
Children Getting out of Ritual Abuse (115)
Chapter 10:
Helping Child Survivors of Ritual Abusep119Chapter 11:
Young People involved in Ritual Abusep131
Young People Born into Ritual Abuse (132) Young Dabblers (133)
Vulnerable Young People (135) Young people getting out (136)
Chapter 12:
Helping Young Survivorsp141 For non-abusive parents and carers (143)
Chapter 13 :
Adults involved in Ritual Abusep147
Adults Born into a Group (148), Marriage and Partners (149)
Adults Dragged into Ritual Abuse (151), Adults getting out (152)
Chapter 14:
Living with Ritual Abuse Survivorsp157 Adoptive Parents and Carers (158), Partners (160), Friends (163)
Chapter 15:
Helping Survivors of Ritual Abusep169
Trust (169) Fear (171), Trying to leave a safe home (173), Suicidal
thoughts and compulsions (175), Self-injury (176), Hypnotism (177),Drugs (180), Dissociation (182), Flashbacks (184), Panic attaks (185),Sleeping problems (186), Sleepwalking (187), In time survivors needtheir independence (192)
Chapter 16:
Safety Firstp195
Safety of Survivors (196), Safety of Workers and other Adults (199),
Personal and Professional Credibility (201) Chapter 17:
After-wordp209 Acknowledgements
This book is dedicated to the many unknown and unrecorded child victimsof ritual abuse. It is for those countless children, who never knew life, love orhope, those who were never allowed to draw first breath, those who knewonly a brief life of too long suffering and those who never knew anythingother than pain and abuse.
Some of these unnamed victims I have been told about and each andevery one I have named and taken into my heart. Though I never knew them,I will never forget any one of them. For them, the least I can do is try to makethe world more aware of some of the abuses that go on and on, fogged inperpetual secrecy.
Thanks are due here to the many brave survivors who have, despite theirown suffering, told me of these victims, it has made them real for me. Theonly time I ever wish that I could find a way to believe in a loving God and aheaven waiting to welcome these children is when I think of those tiny peoplewho never had a chance.
Thanks are also due to the survivors who have shared their lives and theirmemories with me over the years, and the many dedicated workers whohave worked with me to provide support services for survivors of abuse. Allthese amazing people have leant me strength and helped to keep me almostsane.
Thanks also to my five children for giving me the time and space to write,bringing me back, occasionally, to the real world by their constant demandsto be fed and watered at regular intervals, and for generally putting up withme while I work.
Thank you Bill and Nicole for your proofreading skills. I promise to try andlearn to spell before I write the next book.
Introduction
This book is the natural follow onfrom the last publication concerningritual abuse produced by the YoungWomens Centre and entitled, WhoDares Wins. Those who have readWho Dares Wins have described it as
an easy to read, informative and very practical book for helping survivors.This book hopes to be more of the same.
A great deal of material has been written about
ritual abuse, which I havent managed to find the
time to read yet. This is because, being a simple
soul who only wants to help survivors in a
practical and supportive way, I find most books to be too academic or toofocused on therapy for my simple tastes. The truth is, I cant always understandthe big words used. While there is definitely a great need for these books,and I am certain that they help many survivors and the practitioners whowork with them, given that I found the books too academic, I looked aroundfor something a bit simpler.
After a few years of finding nothing simple enough for me, I decided thatmaybe there was a gap in the reading materials. I then made the decision towrite some very practical books to provide valuable information and helpsurvivors, their non-abusive family and their supporters.
There is a great deal missing from Who Dares Wins and also from thisbook. This is due to the fact that I have tried very hard to stay away from themore sensational side of the issue, and have also been determined to bringin the survivors perspective without using any of their experiences or exposingthem in any way. Their stories are their own, and
they may write them for themselves someday if they
ever choose to. In my opinion it is not my place,
nor is it my right, to write another persons story.
If anyone is hoping to read horror stories in this book, forget it. They quitesimply are not there. I have deliberately stayed as far away from describinggory details as I possibly could. The examples I have provided in this book,to try and clarify some of the events, are simple examples. Everything elsecan easily be left to human imagination. The only way to hear the real horrorof what goes on is to build trust with survivors and listen to them.
My aim in this book is to expose the abusers and their actions as much aspossible, and to provide as much information as I possibly can about howthe whole thing works, what they do, how they do it, what it does to thesurvivors and how people can help survivors. As I have no absolutely nocredibility to start with, it cannot be lost through believing in survivors andwriting about ritual abuse as a live issue in Scotland.
I make absolutely no apology for believing that ritual abuse happens inthis country, as I know beyond any doubt that it does. In this book, like theprevious book, I will not enter into the usual debates as to whether or notritual abuse happens and where on earth the proof of it all is. I personallyhave all the proof that I need in listening to, and working with survivors, andif anyone is searching for proof or that type of debate, you will definitely notfind it in this book. All you will find here is information about the subjectgained through many, many years of being with and listening to survivors.