Derrick Jaxn - Ive Come Too Far

31 Days ofMotivational Affirmations

Derrick Jaxn

Copyright 2017Derrick Jackson

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As a teenager, I would get caught talking to myself.My friends would see it and laugh. My girlfriend would be puzzled,and I believe deep down, my parents were a little worried althoughthey tried to laugh it off too. I can see why. From the outside,people wouldnt understand, but with the constant flow of messagesin, out, and swirling around my head, a few of those conversationswere bound to be overheard.

Fast-forward tenyears, and that self-talk changed my life. Not because I did it,because many of us do, but because mine was constructive, positive,honest, and motivational. I didnt allow my voice to take on anyenergy it wanted. I controlled it to intentionally guide me into mydestiny.

Some people talkthemselves out of opportunities. I talked myself into several. Manytalk themselves out of trying, but I talked myself into nevergiving up. Many people talk themselves into depression. I talkedand acted on that talk until I was out of it. While as a teenager,I may have not understood the power of the tongue, but as an adult,theres no denying it. I wouldnt have my family, financialstability, health, or sanity without it.

This book containsthe very same messages Ive imprinted on my subconscious over theyears. The same words that I found strength in when weaknessoverwhelmed me will now be available to you. No matter if yourestriving to be the next billionaire, obtain a Ph.D., or simply liveto fight another day, its my sincere belief that these words willhelp you do all of the above.

While this book isshort and can be consumed in a matter of minutes, do understandthat this is a marathon, not a sprint. If you must read through tofamiliarize yourself with the passages, thats fine. But revisitthese chapters regularly so that you can give your mind thevitamins it needs to combat lifes ills that will surely come yourway if not already knocking at your door. Read through them severaltimes a day, and watch your energy shift one week at a time. Watchthe inflow of positive things into your life. Watch yourperspective change and enjoy the newfound power over yoursituation, no matter how bad it may seem. If done correctly, thesepassages can change the course of your life the same way it didmine. Enjoy.

I've come too far to quit.

I could give up, butI refuse to. I know it would be easier. I'm sure it would be lessstressful and emotionally taxing. I'm sure there would be lesstears involved and people wanting explanations for why I've"changed" when really, I'm just focused. I'm sure I wouldn't missout on so much fun and I could watch more TV and sacrifice lesstime doing the trivial things my peers are doing. I'm willing tobet I'd feel a little better putting money into going out insteadof investing in myself with a risk of losing every penny. I have nodoubt that calling it quits right now would be less difficult thancontinuing on with no guarantee that it will all add up to anythingat all. But I wasn't designed to be this strong just so I can lookfor an easy way out. People have sacrificed for me to have theopportunity that's in front of me. I sacrificed to have thisopportunity. Therefore, I refuse to just lie down to circumstancesI'm faced with. It will have to beat me. Surrendering is not anoption. I began this because it was worth it, and I will finishthis because I deserve it.

My pain will push me.

Yes, it hurts. Yes, Iwant to cry sometimes. But if I must cry, I will cry as I pushforward. The tears will run down my face, but I will not run andhide from the difficulty I'm experiencing. I will go until there'snothing left and then I will dig deeper and find more so I canfight harder. I will let my pain serve as future memories of theprice I paid to make it through my trials, not as my breakingpoint. Even if I don't feel like I can handle it, I will forcemyself to go until I physically can not move another inch towardsmy goals. As long as I have breath in my body, I can and will keepmoving, no matter how much it hurts too. I am a winner, and that'swhat winners do!

My breaking point is only my restart button.

Whatever this is thatcame to break me chose the wrong one. I don't care who, what, orhow many have come against me, if it breaks me, it's onlyrestarting the new me to come back better. I don't break, Irebuild. Stronger. More resilient. Hungrier. More focused.Everything refreshes the moment I hit my knees because I am afighter, and surrender does not run in my blood. So I may not see away out. But if I don't, I will make a way out. Nothing will standin the face of my consistency and desire to go forward. My stumbleis not to be mistaken for me stopping, I'm simply catching mybreath to get up and go again. I am unbeatable because I amunstoppable. I will not break the promise to myself to try againand again until I am done.

I'm here for a reason.

My disgust withlosing is not a mistake. The vision I had when I started was not anaccident. Everything I feel when I fall short is by design to keepme going because I am supposed to be here and my work issignificant. It will mean more to more people than I could haveever imagined. The day breath filled my lungs, so did purpose fillmy heart, and the breath that remains is evidence that so does mypurpose. One day, my work will be done, but that day is not today.I am important and so are the lives I'm here to impact.

Folding is not an option.

Although my body saysno, my mind says stop, my obstacles say quit, my resources say Ican't, my doubters say I won't, my heart has the final say and itsays, Watch me as I do. Against all odds, the ropes, and thedevil himself, I'm fully equipped to keep pressing forward. I willnot fold. I will expand myself until I've risen to the occasion athand, and I will conquer.

I'm smarter this time.

It caught meslipping. I wasn't prepared, and I was naive. Those days are gone.I'm better because I know how to defend myself next time. I'mstronger because I've gone through it before and I'm still here.I'm a much-improved version of myself, and because of that, my oddsof winning this time are exponentially higher. Once I survive theprocess it takes to heal from the last hit, I will be much harderto hit. I will see it coming and other attacks like it. There arelevels to this, and I'm on a higher one because of it. Everybodygets knocked down sometimes, but not everyone gets back up. But Iwill because I'm wiser than before. I'll be ready next time.

My prayers are being heard.

Although it feelslike my cries for direction and help are stopping at the ceiling, Iknow my prayers are being heard. I know that God walks with theimperfect, but he will not walk for us. Therefore, I must keepdoing my part. I must let this process teach me what it is intendedto teach me, and I will learn from it the lessons that will make myjourney easier later down the road. But for the time being, I mustlearn to endure, be patient, and stay focused. I am in the midst ofa storm, but that doesn't mean that I am forgotten. I will simplycontinue working to recognize the tools God has already given methat he's waiting for me to use right now. My prayers are indeedbeing heard, and I accept that the answer doesn't look the way Ithought it would or that it hasn't come in the time I'd like.Either way, I will go on in confidence that God is aware of mystruggle, and I am not alone.