Craig White - Its Never Too Late: Premature Ejaculation (Dreams do come true Book 1)

I want to start this eBook by admitting that my motives are simply to share my experience. I feel obligated to try and explain what has happened in my life and how I went from some of the lowest moments and worst feelings to my current sexual adventures.

I am not sure if what I experienced was normal but from some of the research I did and watching a famous American Pie Comedy film it does seem to affect most males at some point in their life. However I have to say I was never brave enough to discuss this problem with any of my close friends or family which was probably a mistake.

In this short narrative I want to tell you how I went from ejaculating in my pants on numerous occasions before any skin contact to having one hour long sex in various locations with my incredibly beautiful wife which is something I never imagined was possible.

So basically what happened was during my early teenage years sex was built up as a huge thing with friends and school mates talking about it all the time. During this time it was just before the internet and access to huge volumes of free pornography. It was still the age of hand me down VHS video copies and if lucky a Penthouse magazine.

My earliest memory was with my first girlfriend at 17 years old and without dragging the story out I just couldnt control myself. The first time it happened really caught me by surprise and was completely accidental, but I remember her reaction was vey strong. She was so upset and angry which looking back I can understand but it really affected my confidence. We stayed together for about 6 months after but it never got any better until one Christmas works party I walked in and saw her kissing another guy which was pretty upsetting.

Looking back I am really not sure what it was, but it felt like I had spent so much time thinking and fantasying about the situation that my mind was very to explode with the first initial contact. Which it did but rather than my mind it was my penis which felt so unfair. I immediatley started to do some research to find a soloution to what i precieved to be the problem.

After research I couldnt see anything great and resulted to alcohol which i thought was the solution, in my head if I drank more then my confidence level would increase and possibly numb some feeling down below and make me last longer. I am not sure how to sum this up apart from the only person I was fooling was myself, this was a huge waste of my time and a bit embarrassing looking back .

The next thing and I think the most common topic I have read about is a tactical "wank", something made more popular by the hit show The Inbetweeners. Honestly I had limited success with this, its certainly not the sort of thing you can do on a one night stand but I did try it with a longer term girlfriend and it had some improvement but was never ever going to make her happy if you know what I mean definitely a different feeling than the passion of the first time round romance.

The story keeps going because I then thought I knew what was to blame, after this time the internet was in full swing and we had many porn videos available to watch and I could see some common difference. All of the guys in these films were circumcised, I started to google it more and became convinced that my performance was related to this. I thought it must be because its more sensitive or something. So I proceeded to contact my local hospital and at 30 years old I actually got circumcised at a private hospital for the best part of one thousand five hundred pounds. Was it worth it, honestly thinking about it now I am happy I had it done and it does feel and look better in my opinion. However it did not making any difference to my premature ejaculation, after it healed the same thing happened again, although i am not really sure what i was expecting.

The finally and last straw for me was when I purchased some magic potion online, something that was supposed to cure the urge and feeling and basically numb the sensation, act like the same as an extra thick condom i suppose but stronger.

When I sat there and looked at this and thought back over the past 10 years it was definitely a low point, coincidentally at about the same time I had broken up with my current girlfriend because I found out she was cheating on me and it was all getting a bit much. I felt like I had enough of thinking or talking about sex. I decided to just concentrate on my work and anything other than relationships I just wanted away from it all.

I didnt understand how something that was supposed to be so enjoyable was so terrifying and could cause so much anxiety and create such a toxic life, surely it wasnt worth it. So thats what I did, I cut myself off from the world and just concentrated on my work and part time university.

Then fate happened, whilst sat doing my work at a restaurant one day I met the most perfect woman. This went on for a few months with very casual and small conversations as I returned to the restaurant until it eventually grew into a first date. Then the feeling came back but this time it was different, she was so special I could feel like I wanted this woman to be my wife so I took it so very slowly. We had some great dates and activities and really enjoyed being friends first and getting to now each other.

Then It happened, one heated night we ended up getting very passionate and just as I went to pull down my pants I lost control again. The feeling was rock bottom and completely horrifying, I managed to cover it up and she was not really any the wiser as i made some comment about lets take it slow.

But at that point my feeling was lets just give up now rather than avoid any future heartache and make it worse, there is now way a woamn like this will be happy with a loser like me.

This may sound simple or obvious but what I did next changed my life, I sat down and looked at what I had achieved and what I had accomplished I looked at my current girlfriend and how amazingly beautiful she was and how good our future could be and I thought I am not losing this opportunity. This is my chance I thought, the only person that can control this is me. This was my mantra going forward Control the situation

I thought to myself at the end of the day I am the one person that has the power over my emotions and I can control them. This didnt mean picturing my girlfriend as some old granny or some absurd off putting technique to delay the ejaculation, it meant controlling the situation.

I thought this girl choose me, she doesnt know my past or what to expect I can be whatever I want to be and most importantly enjoy our time together. So what I did was started listening to her and watching her body movements, what I wanted was to make sure she was happy first. I spent a lot of time on foreplay and kissing her head to toe, massaging and spending time on her. It was amazing how much pressure this took off straight away, but the real breakthrough happened when I truly realised how to use my tongue on her vagina and clit to make her moan with ecstasy. Honestly what a boost to my confidence and mentality this was, satisfying someone else surely is a great feeling but lets be honest that was never going to be enough.

For the next step it may sound so simple but what I did was just tell the truth. I explained to her how beautiful and sexy she was and how I have a problem controlling myself. Trust me I am telling you that the right girl will understand. She was so considerate and supportive it instantly added another layer of confidence it was amazing.